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Dear God..

I discovered something... hahahha ung crush ko! may jowa! lalaki... anu ba yan! nakakatawa na nakakainis... pero sa bagay.. simula palang naman alam ko na na ganun nga sya.. ang kaso.. I didnt expect na.... may boyfriend sya... tapos kilala ko pa yung guy.

Tama nga.. Hindi nga siguro lahat ng love na biglaang dumating ay meant to be... baka hindi talaga sya ung para saken.. HAIISSSTT..pero kung hindi nga sya... bakit.. bakit.. masakit?? whew! ang hirap mag pretend na di ako affected ... oh tapos panu to sa wednesday.. magbabayad ako ng tuition.. makikita ko sya,,, AY!!! help me move on Lord.. Give me what I deserve..

AY naalala ko pala Lord, kagaya ng lagi kong sinasabe... basta masaya sya.. hayyssssss... heart break.. pati ang best friend ko hert broken din.. whew... I know u can heal broken hearts LOrd.. kaya kaw na po bahala :))

first day without him

mejo mahirap pala... hahahha pero kekerihin ko to Dad..

napansin ko lang kase,, mas madalas ako mabad trip pag ka di ko sya nakikita.. AHHAHAHAHHA ewan ko... basta.. nung ako di pa naiinlove... NAKO... "ang OA nyo wah! maraming lalaki jan" sabe ko palage.. pero iba pala talaga pagka tinamaan ka ng MAGALING! ahhahha...

DAD! bat ka ganyan! First love ko SAWI! hahahah di bale.. ALAM KONG YOU SAVE THE BEST FOR LAST.. hahahah basta sa ngayon tuloy ko parin yung one week na pag distansya sa kanya.. tignan naten.. kung dun sya masaya.. edi.. GO! sabe nga nila diba... IF YOU REALLY LOVE SOMEONE... YOU'LL SET HIM FREE...

i want him to be happy God.. and kung mas masaya sya na wala ako.. okay lang... teka nasabe ko na ata to.. UNLI? UNLI? hahaha basta di ako lalayo dahil di ko na sya gusto... lalayo ako dahil MAHAL KO NA SYA.. at di pa ko handang malaman kung NAIINIS ba sya saken or what.. T.H ako weh... feeling ko naiinis sya.. bakit ba! ahhaha...

Im loving him more each day.. though sinabe ko na sa sarili ko na kakalimutan ko sya.. there's still something.. LAM MO YUN?? ahhahaahha.. basta sabe mo.. dont move ahead from you diba? so, sige... I'll just g with the flow... pretend na di na ko ganung ka interesado sa kanya.. FOR THIS WEEK... malay mu mamiss nya ko... HAHAHAHHA I dong want to expect.. pero.. dad... MASARAP KAYA MAG EXPECT.. masarap mag expect na someday... mamahalin nya rin ako.. ahhahahahhah..... lam mu ba dad.. dahil sa kanya wala na kong ma-appreciate na ibang lalaki.. ahahha nako DAD!!! caw na bahala Dad huh.. may your will be done..

LOVE you Dad :)

Best Day ever..

ang saya saya saya ko ngayon..

Its not what I expected! thank you Dad, It was an UNFORGETTABLE EXPERIENCE!!

you know what Dad,

I danced with him!! HAHAHAHA iiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiihhh kahit feeling ko napilitan lang sya.. OKAY LANG!!!

Dad! bakit ba lage mo kong binibigyan ng reason para lalo akong ma-FALL sa kanya!! LAGI KANG GANYAN!! ayokong magmahal ng isang taong di naman ako kayang mahalin!! Dad.. lam ko.. ngayon lang to masaya... BUT I KNOW IN THE END!!! masasaktan lang ako :(

Dad.. kung di mo rin po sya ibibigay saken.. DAD!! parang awa mo na po!! alisin mo na yung feeling ko sa kanya!!.. Dad bakit mo kase to ginagawa! u have control over my emotions! then why are you doing this?? I know I dont have the right to question your plans... your plans are always perfect right?? and you wont give us a problem that we cannot face.. I just wish u dont trust me that much!!.. when it comes to my emotions... PLEASE DONT TRUST ME THAT MUCH!!

nahihiya ako kay Jash Dad! kasi naman! sana SINULIT KO NA!

sana tinagalan ko na yung sayaw namen! KUNG SANAY LANG SANA KO SA HEELS!! kaso! talagang feeling ko asar xa saken >.< huhuhuhu...

Dad... di nya ku nirereplyan.. T_T.....

pero super bait nya naman.. >.< sya pinaka mamimiss ko pag nag stop na ku T_T

Dad kase! ayoko talaga mag stop >.<.... Di ba may promise ka?? kaw mag pro-provide for me?

mahal mo cu diba?? wag mo na po ko paiyakin.. LOVE MU NAMAN aku weh..

DAD.... sa ngayon... muka parin ni Jash nakikita ko kapag napikit ako.. KUMUKORTE!! hahahhah.. bakit KASE!! hahaha.. DAD! di naman sya bakla diba? am pogi pogi nya kaya kanina... tsaka.. WAG KA MAGAGALIT DAD ahhh...

naiinis kamo ko.. kase andami nyang isinayaw.. DAMING CHIQS!! gulat nga ku weh! gusto ko nang abangan sa labas ng multipurpose hall.. hahaha.. KASI KASI KASI!!!! Dad! super duper inlove ako dun.. pero dont worry.. Di pa naman nakakasira ng pag aaral cu Dad eehh.. tsaka diba? inspiration nga iiihh :)

Dad... gusto ko syang iwasan... MUNA.. MUNA aaaahh ala lang... just want to know what my life would be without him.. tsaka para naren siguro malaman co kung anu ba.. kung matutuwa ba sya pag di ko na sya kinukulit or what... baka kase... naiinis na sya saken nahihiya lang syang sabihin.. pwedeng ganon diba? baka kelangan nya ng SPACE.. tsaka SOBRANG NAKAKAHIYA NA YUNG GINAGAWA KO... >.< nakakahiya kay jash >.< baka di nya talaga ko type.. tas ipag sisiksikan ko pa sarili ko.... baka kung sya bumubuo ng araw ko... aku naman sumisira ng araw nya... HAYSSSSSSSSSSSSS........................

I know that in every situation merong "buti na lang" coz ur good Dad! wag mo ko pababayaan aaahh.. alam mu naman ako.. pers time ko mainlab ng todo todo.. pag nabigo ako.. baka maaga tayong magkita Dad... kung patutuluyin mo ko jan hahaha.. DAD ha.. lakad mo ko kay jash.. ahhahhaha.. KASE KASE KASE!!! basta dad.. tulungan mo ko sa plans ko

previous relationships puro fling fling... trip trip lng... wala naman talagang emotional na commitment... minsan.. crush.. pero ngayon lang toh.. ngayon lang talaga toh! hayssss.... DAD BAKIT!!! bakit sa to pang di naman ako kayang mahalin?? DAD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! di pa naman huli ang lahat iihh... alisin mo nalang toh.. ANSAKIT EEHH!! doubtful ako palagi.. di ko malaman kung asar na ba sya saken or what.. BASTA! bigyan ko muna sya ng space... one week.. sapat na siguro un... basta! help me Dad.. I love you.. please take care of me.. start ko na yon next week :)

MY LUCKY GUY? GUY?

I don't know what the hell on earth happened to me..

It just started with a simple crush.. and back then... I was contented staring at him from a distance... and.. yeah! maybe its wrong to Love Him more each day...

Im asking God. Why did you give me this feeling.. WHY HIM?? WHY NOW? WHY HERE?? ..I know God has reason for everything.... a good one!

before, I dont know the difference between LOVE and CRUSH... you know I had never been in a serious relationship... 15 boys came in to my life.. none of them lasted longer than 2 weeks so... according to the girls code of ethics... THEY'RE not COUNTED ahahahaha.. which means.. I NEVER HAD A BOYFRIEND... ahhaha that's ridiculous!.. but anyway.. I don't care about boys.... UNTIL I MEET HIM..

HIM who gave me reason to buy a new cellphone battery.. hahaha.. HIM who made me spend half of my allowance for the FU*KIN battery.. aahaha... but it doesn't matter... it's worth it.. So since, I go my cellphone back.. back to the usual.. group message (gm) every minute.. and every GM is all about HIM... then my friends got curious about this MAN.. so they've been asking me.. "who's the LUCKY GUY?".. so was like.. GUY? GUY?? oh.. I forgot to tell you.. HE'S A GAY... "they said"... but in my eyes.. HE'S NOT A GAY!! he's my MR. PERFECT.. my MR. RIGHT ... my LUCKY GUY! and I don't care what they say.. hhhahahaha..

HE'S NOT A GAY! hay.... Im not sure if im still on the right track .. HAHHAAH... I like him.. NO! I think I love him... hahaha..Is there anything wrong with that.... anyway.. Im not waiting for anything in return... Now that I have his number.. Now that we're texting.. I have nothing to ask for....To see him everyday, his friendhip... its enough for me.. more than enough actually :)

have a great day.. :)